I eat my meals outside whenever I can. Yesterday, I sat down to eat my lunch and watch my birds. As I was surveying the sky around me, I saw something very interesting. It was a swarm of tiny white insects. The night before I had seen something similar above my head near the pond. Those had been brown and I knew they were gnats, also called midges. Today, these were white and glistened in the sun. My camera was ready, but I was doubtful I would get pictures. How was my camera going to focus on something so tiny? But, I have learned to be disciplined with my photography. Take the shot regardless and hope. Checking the screen, I had something in some of the shots. When I magnified some of them in the camera, I became even more hopeful. So I kept adjusting the amount of zoom and hoping it would focus and I took a number of shots. Once again I checked my images. There were some that WERE picking up detail, enough to see it was definitely small winged insects, most likely midges. Tuesday, February 02, 2021
Fully Aware
I eat my meals outside whenever I can. Yesterday, I sat down to eat my lunch and watch my birds. As I was surveying the sky around me, I saw something very interesting. It was a swarm of tiny white insects. The night before I had seen something similar above my head near the pond. Those had been brown and I knew they were gnats, also called midges. Today, these were white and glistened in the sun. My camera was ready, but I was doubtful I would get pictures. How was my camera going to focus on something so tiny? But, I have learned to be disciplined with my photography. Take the shot regardless and hope. Checking the screen, I had something in some of the shots. When I magnified some of them in the camera, I became even more hopeful. So I kept adjusting the amount of zoom and hoping it would focus and I took a number of shots. Once again I checked my images. There were some that WERE picking up detail, enough to see it was definitely small winged insects, most likely midges. Monday, February 01, 2021
Meditation: Life's Blinders
While it was in the 50's, I knew I needed more than just my wool sweater, so I grabbed this jacket with hood, and I immediately put the hood over my head to conserve body heat.
I immediately discovered that it was strongly affecting my peripheral vision. I could not detect the movement or moving shadows that help me notice the birds around me and above me. Even pulling it back a little still left me without the full range of vision I am accustomed to. I knew I was missing things. I was not getting the full view of the world around me this morning. It bothered me.
As is often the case, my mind immediately thought about how this applies to other parts of my life. We all have things that are "blinders," that hinder us from seeing the full picture in our world.
The first thing that came to my mind was news sources. It is so easy to read our daily news sources that support our own political beliefs. But, that may blind us in seeing why other people see things differently. It may also prevent us from seeing important news that our favorite sources may not report. I have worked over the last several years to have a Facebook feed that does show me news articles both from "main stream media," from more liberal news pages, and from conservative news sources. I also look at Facebook pages from Christian newspapers, Christian writers, and my Christian friends.
What else can we have blind spots about?
We can be blind about our personal strengths and weaknesses. Throughout my life it has been easy for me to dwell on my weaknesses and my failures without giving equal time for my strengths and my victories.
We can be blind about sins in our life. We all have the things that we know that we need to do better in our walk with God. But, I suspect that we also all have sin in our hearts that are hidden from our own sight. The pschological concept of the Johari Window (https://www.habitsforwellbeing.com/johari-window-we-dont-know-what-we-dont-know/) has 4 "windows."
1. Known to self
2. Known to others
3. Not know to self
4. Not known to others
Conclusion: My time spent outdoors in observation, reflection, and meditation helps me be more aware of some of these things. My time reading inspirational and scientific things to develop understanding of how my intellectual and spiritual self works also helps me be less blind. My time on Facebook where I truly look at what other people think and why, where I read news articles that both support my beliefs and but also look at news that may not support my belief. I have to be careful to study and discern whether the news sources I read accurately portray what is going on in the world around me so I can reduce my blind spots. This is very difficult right now. It is why I read my news from a wide variety of sources. It is why I analyze my news sources here: https://www.adfontesmedia.com This is their methodology and why I trust their analysis: https://www.adfontesmedia.com/how-ad-fontes-ranks-news-sources/
What blindspots are there in your life?
Thursday, January 28, 2021
Be Still and Know I am God . . . Nature Meditations
From scripture:
Exodus 14:14 "The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still."
Nehemiah 8:11 "Be still for this is a holy day."
Psalm 37:7 "Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him."
Psalm 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God."
The dictionary definition of still is "deep silence and calm." Another dictionary adds the word "tranquil." Other definitions: "Not moving or in motion. Free from disturbance, agitation, or commotion."
A couple of years ago I was introduced to the concept of "forest bathing." No . . . this is NOT taking a bath in the forest, rather it is a methodology of being still and fully aware of your surroundings. It is a process of slowing down and becoming emersed in God's natural environment. It is taking time to tune in to the smells, textures, tastes and sounds around us. Nature sounds, the scents of the flowers, the sight of sunlight hitting the hillsides, the fresh smell of rain, and the sounds of morning birdsong affect our body in positive ways. They comfort us and reduce our stress and our worries. For me, it gives me a sense of joy. It also helps us relax. More importantly it helps us to think more clearly. Time spent emerged in the nature that God created restores our inner tranquility, gives us energy, washes our weariness away, and rejuvenates us for our other daiy tasks.
I also find that when I take the time to do this type of meditation, that I often receive life lessons from the experience, insight that is very useful.
I will be doing a series of posts with some examples.
For today, I encourage you to find a place near you to go spend time outside. It could be your backyard, it could be your local park. Perhaps there is a creek or river near you. The first time you do this it may seem difficult, but practice doing this. Once you have found your place, sit or stand quietly for 10 or 15 minutes. Notice what is around you. Notice the breeze on your face, the clouds moving above you, the water ripples, the textures, the natural sounds around you, and any scent on the air. Resist thinking about all the things that you need to do or the problems that you will face later in the day. Keep your mind centered on the nature around you. It may be difficult for you at first. I believe that this is a mental and spiritual discipline that will be very rewarding for you as you practice it.
Thursday, August 20, 2020
Interesting Ruby -Throated Hummingbird with Orange Gorget
But this is SUCH a different color than what I expect from a ruby throat. So I sent photos to an expert comparing several hummingbirds that have been at my feeder this summer. He asked for more photos.
Friday, March 27, 2020
Praying for COVID-19
My reading today was Psalm 69.
I also write my prayers during my morning time. My prayer for today, using Psalm 69:
Dear God,
Save me for the virus seems to be approaching.
All around we seem to be sinking in the mire of infection. As a nation we have not found a foothold. We are approaching deep water with overwhelming floods of sick people. Our medical personnel are crying for help.
It seems that we have people trying to destroy us with lies.
Father, you know how foolish we are. We can not hide our sins from you.
Father I keep praying to you to have mercy on us.
Please answer our prayers with your sure salvation from this disease.
Rescue us from the mire of this infection. Let the measures we are attempting keep us from seeking further.
Pull us from these deep waters. As individuals, don’t let this viral flood overwhelm us or deep waters swallow us, or the pit of death devour us.
Answer these prayers, Lord, for I know your unfailing love is wonderful.
Take care of us, for I know your mercy is plentiful.
Come and redeem us, free us from this virus.
In Jesus name,
Amen
Saturday, March 21, 2020
Thinking about how to deal with this difficult time
It feels like things have changed in a heartbeat. From an active life where I was always on the go, I am now choosing to stay at home for an indefinite period of time. I am a realist, I think this time of social distancing will be measured in months, not weeks. From regular contact with my grandson, I may not see him in person for months.
But I believe that God had done some preparation for me. Back in January I got back into a morning time with God pattern. This time of Bible study, reflection, journaling, coffee and breakfast help me start my day with the reminder that in the midst of the unknown, the chaos of an unfathomable disease, the drastic changes to every day living, the separation from vital social interaction and the monetary uncertainties, that God IS still in control. In so very many places, the Bible says "Do not be afraid." "Do not be anxious."
So my game plan is to look outside every day for something joyful and blessed. It is spring in Central Texas. The flowers are beginning their glorious bloom. We had blessed rain yesterday. The butterflies and birds are going about their daily activities.
I will also be working at home on projects that have been neglected such as going through my photographs and making submissions, writing articles and making submissions, go through the house and trying to get rid of 30 some odd years of accumulated belongings.
Please join me in finding positive ways to spend your time during this unexpected change in our lives. Be mindful of the beauty that surrounds you. While you can't ignore the bad news, the number of cases that will surely rise catastrophically, the difficulties in getting your needed supplies, you can make choices to direct your focus on what is GOOD around you. You can be grateful for what you have rather than focusing on what you have not right now.
And please, don't forget to spend time meditating with the God of creation. For me, it will be His peace that passeth understanding that will help me weather the trials that are coming our way. Grace and peace to you! May you find a special blessing every day to give you hope during this dark time.
Tuesday, February 18, 2020
God’s Glory
So I went and looked up the word: glory.
From Merriam Webster’s online dictionary:
Definition of glory
1a : praise, honor, or distinction extended by common consent : RENOWN
b : worshipful praise, honor, and thanksgiving giving glory to God
2a : something that secures praise or renown the glory of a brilliant career b : a distinguished quality or asset The glory of the city is its Gothic cathedral.
3a : a state of great gratification or exaltation When she's acting she's in her glory. b : a height of prosperity or achievement ancient Rome in its glory
4a(1) : great beauty and splendor : MAGNIFICENCE … the glory that was Greece and the grandeur that was Rome. — E. A. Poe
(2) : something marked by beauty or resplendence a perfect glory of a day b : the splendor and beatific happiness of heaven broadly : ETERNITY
5 : a ring or spot of light: such as a : AUREOLE
b : a halo appearing around the shadow of an object
I think the Israelites experienced God’s great beauty, splendor, and resplendence as well as his distinguishing qualities in such a way that led them to worshipful praise, honor and thanksgiving.
I am not sure even after thinking about it that I can really grasp what it would be like to experience the glory of God the way the Israelites did.
I think in today’s world, believers know that God is always with them, but we don’t always see it as clearly as described in Exodus. We don’t necessarily experience His glory in our daily lives as the Israelites did as they saw the cloud surrounding the Tabernacle during the day and the pillar of fire at night. How would it change our lives if we mediated on God’s glory, his incredible power, and sought His glory on a daily basis. Would it change how we treat the people around us? Would it change how we viewed the divisions, the hatred, the animosity that surrounds us in the difficult times we are experiencing? In the search for God’s glory and in the search for what God’s view would be, would it change our hearts, words, and actions?
As for me, I am hoping I can put thinking about God’s glory into my daily thoughts about God and my relationship with him.
Wednesday, January 29, 2020
The Difference a Year Makes

Last January I took an Amtrak train ride with my grandson from Austin to Taylor. I could walk and get where I wanted, but walking and standing were endurance tests. If I walked longer distances, I had to "pause" regularly. If I really wanted to get somewhere, I got there, but sometimes it was just plain hard.This photo shows what I looked like then.
During the February Laredo Bird Festival, a common comment to me was: "Knee? It will be so much better when you replace it." So, I decided it was finally time. Surgery was scheduled at the end of April. At a visit to my sleep doctor, I commented that I usually followed doctor's instructions . . . but weight was the exception. He said, "I have a solution for that." With some skepticism I started his diet program about a month before the surgery. I felt like I would recover from the surgery much faster if I got some of the weight off. I started losing immediately.
Surgery day came. Recovery included using a walker to get where I wanted to go. But . . . I got out and started doing short walks on smooth pavement with the walker. I still had to pause. After graduating from the walker, I walked the road by my house. The first time, I just went down to one end and back, pausing a few times there and back. A little while later, I managed to walk to the main road and back, still with those little strategic pauses.
As the months passed, my walks got longer and stronger. By Thanksgiving, my grandson and I took the long loops at the Heard Natural Science Museum and Wildlife Sanctuary. It was a 4 mile day!

Yesterday I took one of the longer loops at Berry Springs Park Preserve with my grandson. He says I walk faster now. Today I walked the road in front of my house. I started at my house, went up the driveway, up to the main road, down to the end of the road, back to my driveway. No pauses. What a victory I felt! Then I went down to the pond and retrieved my game camera card. It is so nice to be able to get around the property easily again.
I lost weight in 2005, 2006. I am now 30 pounds lighter than I was then.
This photo was taken by my grandson at a nearby park in the fall. I am still working on better fitness and more weight loss. I am so grateful to be where I am.
Monday, November 07, 2016
Sabal Palms Sanctuary . . . the feeder
At the bird feeder by the old visitor center, listening to the last rain drops hitting the leaves and palms.
Watching the water drops hitting the leaves and causing them to flutter. Seeing the reflections of the green tree leaves in the reflections on the dark deck. Feeling the gentle cool breeze. Hearing the quiet voices of a group of birders who drop by but don't stay. As I wonder if any birds will visit the feeders on this wet day, I hear a bird calling. Chachalacas pass by with their loud cackling call.

The forest is thick and green around this old visitor center. It is quiet now - only the sound of the occasional rain drop.
Saturday, September 05, 2015
International Peace Gardens
The International Peace Gardens straddle the border between the United States and Canada between North Dakota and Manitoba.
It was dedicated in 1932: TO GOD IN HIS GLORY, we two nations dedicate this garden and pledge ourselves that as long as men shall live, we will not take up arms against one another.
The Civilian Conservation Corps did most of the early construction.
There are 2300 acres to explore. We started our exploration on the Canadian side which is forested with water features and more natural in nature, taking the loop twice during our visit. In some ways I preferred the wild areas with the trees and birds. However, the formal gardens are beautiful and I enjoyed walking around to see everything.
We saw an immature northern flicker as well as adult northern flickers. We tried to stop for every bird and I enjoyed seeing birds near our picnic table at lunchtime.
Around the formal garden ponds there were many Northern Leopard Frogs.
The Interpretive Center and Conservatory had a good gift shop, restaurant as well as cactus and succulents from around the world.
The formal gardens were a delight to explore. I talked to someone who visits every year. He told me the plantings are unique every year. He also told me that the Peace Towers in the background of the first photo have deteriorated and will be removed at some point.
Friday, August 28, 2015
Coming in to Breckenridge . . .The Memories
Rent a bike and take the trails down to Frisco and ride the bus back.
Go over Boreas Pass.
Go to Mount Evans and photograph the mountain goats and mountain sheep.
Ride the train in Georgetown (we have never done that.)
Take one of the lifts to the top of the mountain and walk the trails back to town.
Visit the Breckenridge Recreation Center.
In addition I had been thinking about the things we could do in Colorado "on the way home."
Swing by Rocky Mountain National Park going over Trail Ridge.
Swing by Silverton.
Go to the Malt Shop in Pagosa Springs.
Visit Garden of the Gods in Colorado Springs being there at sunrise or sunset.
I walked through a wonderful garden of memories as I thought about things we "could" do, but also realizing that we are due to arrive home on Sunday back in Hutto. These memories of all these delightful things were done on trips where we were here a week or more. But remembering things we've done in this area in the past made me grateful for all we have been able to do over the years.
Saturday, August 22, 2015
The 2015 Adventure Begins: #North Dakota
After all the last minute tasks were completed . . . house sitter arranged, Gambler care arranged, to do lists mostly done, I got off on Friday to join Henry in Minneapolis to head west. Our first target was to explore parts of North Dakota. We made it to Fargo last night. This morning we headed to explore some of their official "scenic byways." Here is a link to their official information Scenic Byways and Backways Information Guide. The first one we chose was the Rendevous Region Scenic Backway.

First stop was Icelandic State Park. The Pioneer Heritage Center has a lovely visitor center and several restored buildings from the homesteading era.
This church was beautiful. I wish it had been open to see the inside.
I've been paying more attention to native grasses the last couple of years. I loved this exhibit in the Pioneer Heritage Center showing how deep the roots are in prairie grasses.
One of my goals for this trip has been to get more exercise and lose more weight. There were several hiking trails. I took the one through the forest. I saw a strange woodpecker. I wish that I had gotten a photo because I thought it was an American Three-toed woodpecker. I use BirdLog to enter my bird lists to keep records of what I see and my life list. Whenever you get a "square" next to your bird, you know you may be in trouble with your identification. The kindly ebird reviewer told me there were NO records for that species in North Dakota. I still think the bird I saw matches the description, but I will be content with hoping to see that species another place.

The road also led us past several areas that were filled with antique cars. I wonder what the story is behind the cars. Do they let photographers visit?

Friday, August 21, 2015
#Sasquan Day 2
The next 5 hours were back to back interesting panels. I started with Stories of the Spokane Tribe told by James "Jimbo" Seyler. Stories of from the Spokane tribe about how the land forms in the area were formed, stories of "coyote." An interesting look at one tribe's stories.
Going in an entirely different direction I went to "What is New in Astronomy?" Dr. David Clements from the physics department of the Imperical College in London was the moderator. Other panelists were interesting and well informed as well. I learned about the latest research on asteroids - how most are not solid rock but rather rubble held together with ice. When two of these bump into each other, they often merge in strange shapes. It was interesting that there has been a probe studying Comet P-67. For more info look at the pictures from the probe. Another topic was dark energy and dark matter. Fascinating stuff.
Next panel was Medieval Science and Technology with a different set of interesting, knowledgeable panelists. Guy Consolmagno is a Jesuit brother who is living in Italy as an astronomer and planetary scientist at the Vatican Observatory. Jo Walton is an amazing writer who uses medieval themes in her writing. Bradford Lyau is a trained historian and science fiction writer. Lots of interesting concepts were bounced around. Sometimes we look at a story or movie and think the technology is wrong for the time period when actually it is correct. Mentioning the poverty and poor living conditions during the Middle Ages, it was noted that many of these people were living amid the ruins of Rome's technology knowing they could not recreate it. How frustrating and defeating that would be. It made me think of all the technology we rely on in our day to day lives. What would happen if all of that disappeared for some reason? Another interesting piece of information was that many of the beautiful cathedrals in Florence were built in a time of desperation. The churches and the women who became nuns were acts of faith for God to deliver them from the perils around them at the time.
Next came a reading from author Connie Willis. I've read some of her books and I've heard her at other science fiction conventions. An enjoyable time listening to her read an excerpt from her book that will come out next year.
Another change of pace came next with the panel, The Art and Science of Spaceships. Shape, art, artificial gravity, and possible sizes were part of the discussion. But also intriguing thoughts about what it would be like to put together a mission to another star that might involve people living on the spaceship for 1000 years. Would they want to leave when they reached the new planet? How would their culture change?
After this panel I went outside by the river, partly to have a snack, but partly because being outside is peaceful and feeds part of my soul. I needed a break after 5 hours of sitting in rooms with no windows.

One of the things I like about going to Science Fiction Conventions are the ways my mind is challenged while I am there. Today's panels were very different from one another and I learned things and felt like my mind was being expanded and challenged with new information.
Later, I joined Henry and we went to eat at Anthony's Home Port, which overlooks the beautiful waterfalls in Spokane. A good day!
Thursday, August 20, 2015
Getting started at #Sasquan World Science Fiction Convention
Monday, August 17, 2015
Yellowstone's wolves

We have chosen for our last two visits to stay at the northeast corner of the park at Silver Gate, Montana. The Grizzly Lodge is less than a mile from the entrance to the park and about a 30 minute drive to the wolf viewing area between the Yellowstone Institute and Pebble Creek Campground. This area usually has an active wolf pack where wolves can be seen. To see the wolves, one must be at this location near sunrise. In other years there were wolf watchers there at sunset, we did not see that this year. We got up 3 of our 4 mornings to attempt to see the wolves and were successful twice. The middle morning, the pups were seen by folks near us, but the one dropped out of sight before I saw it.
However, where you look for the wolves changes every time we visit. The best way to see the wolves is to look for the group of people all standing together with scopes. This year the group was down in the valley looking up onto the northern grassy sage covered slopes. While my walking is better, I still have mobility issues and decided not to go down there. I set up my chair and scope on the side of the parking area where they were looking and waited.
Shortly, they turned their scopes a different direction. I rushed down to the other end of the parking lot and sure enough, there were the wolves, five of them. Using my Canon Powershot SX50 with its 1200 mm zoom I was able to capture these images. Most wolf sightings are distant, with the wolves appearing as small moving specks on the hillside.
Here is my first view of the wolf ascending the slope. The black wolves are easier to spot than the gray ones.
This shot captures two more . . .
I like the running shot.
Here it is cropped closer:


































